The Resurrection

I have decided to re-open my blog that I started a few years ago. I've been thinking about getting it going for a while now, and considered it much more fervently in the past week. Well now that I have a few hours to kill, I decided now is as good a time as ever to get it rolling again.

Had a few situations the past couple months that greatly affected me and I thought this could be therapeutic for me. I'm not quite sure how I'm gonna run this though, between just talking about current stuff, or going back autobiographically highlighting the struggles I've endured in my nearly 30 years on this planet.

Hopefully I can learn by talking about what I've been through, and maybe people can learn about why I am the way I am. I hope its not a "poor me" blog. I'd like to use it to get past things in my life. But I can only hope that it helps me , free of judgement from other people. That is of course is dependent on me telling others about my blog. Who knows when , and if , I do that. Only time will tell if I do such a thing. Until then, I will just use this blog as a place to reflect and learn

It's been a while....

Yes I'm quoting Staind....they used to be so good...

Been quite a while since I've posted, and I dont think anyone really noticed....oh well. Maybe I kinda want this to just be a journal that only some people can find. Not really my style to put everything out in the open. Granted, anyone who wants to can read this, the trick is finding it. maybe someone out there has me bookmarked. Let me know if you do.... At least then I know someone is listening.

Been super busy working again. This is good, but I could use about a week off just to sleep. And crappy rain this weekend. It doesnt let me get the things I want to get done, done. So that sucks. At least my project list is shrinking. I really want to get things finished though. Then I can just relax when I have time off, and do the things I need to do. And now that has increased too. 10 baby calves! They are cute, but they take a lot of time. It'll be nice when they are older and taking care of them only takes 15 minutes instead of an hour twice a day.

Kinda dealing with a stalker now too....instead of backing off when I don't respond, she calls and texts more....crap. I dont really find it necessary to have to break up with someone I only went out with a couple of times

Hmmm good post today. I'll try to keep it updated a bit more. Let me know if you're a reader. I feel more obligated when I know someone is listening....

That's what's running through my head....

Jumbled and humbled

Lots of different things on my mind tonight and its been a while since I've posted so here I go...

The Broncos have announced that Jay Cutler will be traded. Let's go Vikings and scoop up a Pro Bowl quarterback! We already could have had him for a couple draft picks. Go Brad Childress you god damn retard and trade Tarvaris- no, cut him and make a trade for Cutler. Clearly we need a quarterback! Get a good one! Overpay for him, I surely don't care! I'll even let Childress stay if he gives up on the Tarvaris Jackson experiment. We need a championship. A good qb is really our most pressing need

I also think that we need to stop giving tv shows to people that have like 8 kids. People are clearly just trying to get on tv and get free stuff and are trying to have unnatural numbers of children to do so. Jon and kate plus 8, 14 kids and pregnant again, and the octomom are prime examples. And I think just in general, and including these shows, we need to stop rewarding peoples bad decisions. That's all the government is doing now. GM and Chrysler are needing and getting bailout money because they made bad decisions with their business.

I still don't see how doubling and tripling our debt is going to cut it in half... Can anyone explain that to me please? I understand taking actions to help the economy. But I don't think those actions should be reckless spending!

More crazy people in the news too... Shooting rampage in a nursing home kills 8 including 7 people aged 78-98. Are you serious??? What the hell??? And a 23 year old guy beheaded his 5 year old sister and killed another. What is with these crazy fuckers? It is just unfathomable in my opinion

I'm doing good in my life... I'm happy. I really put myself out there today. Just not the best timing. Oh well, I'm good to go and I bounced back quick. Life is good. The world is scary for sure, there's so much uncertainty. But I'm calm, cool, collected, and I'm confident. I am doing really well. Let's hope I keep it up

To my stupid ex: fuck you. I will never, ever forgive you. You ruined my trust in people, and truly tested whether I'd make it through or not. Well I did make it, and I never ever want to hear anything about you, or ever hear from you again.


Know what though: I really am doing well in life. I'm finally able to show who I really am and who I hope to be and people are really recognizing it. Financially, yeah times are tough. But I am at my strongest emotionally that I've ever been. I have tons of hope for the future. Let's hope I don't get let down, or get down on myself. I just have to keep going like this, one day at a time, and I will be all right

That's what's running through my head

What's the deal with our leadership??

Seriously, what is the deal with our country's leaders? Obama's press conference last night was a waste of time. He dodged questions, rambled on and on repeating the same things, and didn't take any questions from news outlets that have been openly critical of him. Do you just like hearing yourself talk? And how come to stutter and mumble when you can't read off of your precious teleprompter?

Oh and I love how you have to point out that you inherited a large debt, but how does doubling it, and then tripling it help reduce it? Do you not know what reduce means? I know that you'll keep using the inherited debt as an excuse- if your plans are successful, you will point out how you overcame the debt from the Bush administration. But if you fail, you will pass the blame back onto Bush and say that you inherited an insurmountable debt. Either way, you will not look like the bad guy. You know what though? The day you took the oath, it became your debt. It is your baby. That's it. Nobody to blame but yourself. How does doubling the debt help reduce it??? I have a bachelor's degree, so I'm no dummy, but how does that work? I understand and agree that investing into sustainable things that will help us grow is necessary, but how does spending $ 600 billion on health care reform save us money in the future? It seems like the same speculation on the housing market that sent us into a tailspin.

Seriously democrats, stop living in the past and blaming the problems on Bush. Figure out how to move forward without bankrupting the country or turning us into a socialist state

And stop being a flip-flopping hypocrite Mr. Obama


That's what's running through my head...

Rounding out the day....

So here it goes, my first real mobile blog...so what to really talk about. How about the world. People are going on shooting sprees left and right. Is the world or their life really that bad? I mean what really goes through a person's mind before they go on a shooting spree? As mad as I've been, I've never thought to myself " hey, let's kill them, and then as many people as I can find after that." Punch someone, hit them, talk shit behind their back, why not try that instead. At least its a more normal reaction, and at least a little more socially acceptable.

And yeah there are all sorts of financial troubles all over the world. But it is not the end of the world. Things are already looking better, at least a little bit anyways. And I know people cry for gun control after shootings like these. But the problem doesn't lie in the gun, it lies in the person. So rather than gun control, I say we should increase mental health services. Or how about we just start paying attention to our surroundings, especially the people around us. Maybe take a minute to learn about others. Take an interest in the people we come across during our days. And how about we be respectful to others and just be nice...I think that would help out the world more than any amount of money or control


That's what's Running through my Head

testing the mobile blog

Just checking to see how she works on the blackberry...I think its a success

My first post

So I had been thinking of starting a blog for quite a while now...I finally made the jump...I figured why not? I've got spare time, I joined Twitter last week...might as well get all of this going...Kinda just want to do random things on my blackberry, so here it is.

Not sure what route this will go, how often I'll post, or anything. Heck I dont even know if anyone will read it. But I'll put it on my Facebook page and see who checks me out

In general, I'll just be blogging about whatever is on my mind...which is what I think most people do...maybe it'll catch on and you all will learn more about me...maybe it won't... that's just what's runnning through my head.....